ENT follow up.

Today I met with my ENT.

Spike is not so simple. As if cancer is a simple answer.
The ENT is unsure as to what Spike is. He feels strongly that Spike is not cancer. He has a hypothesis which is Spike is a parodit gland in the wrong spot swelling.

This was suprisingly frusterating to hear. Not the part where Spike is likely not cancer but that lack of certianty as to what Spike is. There are still to many ifs. If he is confused Parodit tissue or a Parodit gland, why is he swelling. Why the changes in my face?

The next step is to biopsy Spike.

I found the complete difference between the radiology report and the doctor a bit difficult to wrap my head around. I was prepared with questions I was prepared to create a plan. Now I am lost in a sea of "if".

Nothing is ever simple and I would rather the right answer than rush to the wrong one.

A  study in 2009  showed cortisone levels while waiting for a biopsy were comparable to actually recieving a cancer diagnosis. http://radiology.rsnajnls.org/cgi/content/abstract/250/3/631

The New York times published an article on it https://www.nytimes.com/2009/02/25/health/25stress.html


 Biopsy is Monday.  One more week of waiting followed by 3-4 days.  I should be celebrating his optimism instead I am frusterated and ashamed I do not know what is happening in my own body.